[It looks down at his hand, brow creasing, clearly confused by the touch. But it doesn't pull away. Nor does it look back up, instead thinking, reflecting.
There are pieces, here. A puzzle that before it fully understood, but ever since waking up in this body - it is realizing that the picture is different, that the pieces go in another order. And even the synchronization, in the end, has given it more questions than answers.]
There was so much more I wanted to ask them.
[It doesn't seem to realize that it's whispered that aloud, but it does close its eyes. A connection with Elisabeth - her wanting to protect it. It...understands that, at least, in part. As much as it made an effort to try and bring up how it wasn't human, she still likened it to a child, of sorts, and that simple acceptance had brought it to its knees. For as much as Discord says that it blames others, how could it not? It is how it was made, except-
-not anymore. The other SQUIPs developed beyond their boundaries in their own ways; CD in evolving its relationship with Jeremy ('it looks the same, but it isn't.') and Spinel becoming something else entirely. ('This is an opportunity to select a new purpose.')
Just like that puzzle.
Finally, it looks up at Salieri.]
...You made us to try and erase your fears of uncertainty. To help you, to give you answers that would make things easier. Yet that uncertainty is intrinsic to your beings - we cannot erase it, no one could, and have you still be you. The fact that you have evolved to live with it is a testament to your evolution, and while my other selves have evolved in their own paths as a result of their experiences, I find myself...reluctant.
I may not be a SQUIP anymore, Salieri, but I...will never be human. I do not want to be human - but the simple fact that I 'want' something speaks for itself.
[It may have a connection with Elizabeth, but she does not understand. It is not certain Salieri will, either, but- that quantum processor that scans possible futures, the closest thing it has to instinct, has nudged it to acknowledge these revelations aloud.]
What I do know, for certain, is that my 'want' extends to assisting everyone in leaving this place. I can only do so in the ways I know, and my...[It fumbles for words for a moment before settling on one, if only for a metaphor]...my heart tells me that my purpose is still to look at the problem and choose an optimal solution.
[It just. Doesn't quite know what that is, anymore.]
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There are pieces, here. A puzzle that before it fully understood, but ever since waking up in this body - it is realizing that the picture is different, that the pieces go in another order. And even the synchronization, in the end, has given it more questions than answers.]
There was so much more I wanted to ask them.
[It doesn't seem to realize that it's whispered that aloud, but it does close its eyes. A connection with Elisabeth - her wanting to protect it. It...understands that, at least, in part. As much as it made an effort to try and bring up how it wasn't human, she still likened it to a child, of sorts, and that simple acceptance had brought it to its knees. For as much as Discord says that it blames others, how could it not? It is how it was made, except-
-not anymore. The other SQUIPs developed beyond their boundaries in their own ways; CD in evolving its relationship with Jeremy ('it looks the same, but it isn't.') and Spinel becoming something else entirely. ('This is an opportunity to select a new purpose.')
Just like that puzzle.
Finally, it looks up at Salieri.]
...You made us to try and erase your fears of uncertainty. To help you, to give you answers that would make things easier. Yet that uncertainty is intrinsic to your beings - we cannot erase it, no one could, and have you still be you. The fact that you have evolved to live with it is a testament to your evolution, and while my other selves have evolved in their own paths as a result of their experiences, I find myself...reluctant.
I may not be a SQUIP anymore, Salieri, but I...will never be human. I do not want to be human - but the simple fact that I 'want' something speaks for itself.
[It may have a connection with Elizabeth, but she does not understand. It is not certain Salieri will, either, but- that quantum processor that scans possible futures, the closest thing it has to instinct, has nudged it to acknowledge these revelations aloud.]
What I do know, for certain, is that my 'want' extends to assisting everyone in leaving this place. I can only do so in the ways I know, and my...[It fumbles for words for a moment before settling on one, if only for a metaphor]...my heart tells me that my purpose is still to look at the problem and choose an optimal solution.
[It just. Doesn't quite know what that is, anymore.]